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Friday, November 21st, 2008
November 21, 2008	I have no life =[
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Wednesday, October 22nd, 2008
October 22, 2008	....  Im sorry. I never did it in a way to put you down.  &maybe you don't believe me. =[ This has been the hardest summer of my life, & it's just getting worse. All I can say is Im sorry. I don't know what to do. Im sorry..I really am.   Im a bitch, I know. =/  Whats new...
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Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
September 23, 2008	....  Things are going pretty shitty. I hate these cycles, I wish I could just hate him. =[ It's a good thing I'm gonna be able to get away for a few days....maybe. I don't know, but this happens every time, and I can always predict what comes next. I'm miserable =/ Only good thing about today was I have no cavities, working out, and flirting with some random boy a publix. Too bad that happiness was...very short. uhgskalbgabjlbsidgbailbi!!!! =[ FUCK YOU! =] Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: Spongebob. lolz
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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
September 03, 2008	I really hate waiting around like this. =[ I should be doing homework...whatever. I got a new phone today. I really like it. I think it's cute. I'm gonna go get a bowl of ice cream, which I really shouldn't because I didn't get to run today. =/ I got home too late, and then cooking dinner took awhile, and then Sharon came by to get her makeup. Bye the time I actually had free time, it was already dark. This just means I will do at least 1 1/2 miles tomorrow. I cant wait for soccer to start. It should be a great distraction. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Thursday? ha
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Monday, September 1st, 2008
September 01, 2008	hello stranger Soooooo this is being written while I'm at The Capitol because I am bored and I have Sara's macbook! & I just had to help TB carry water for Paddock Park.....hahaha. I haven't really updated for a really long time. I think the beginning of summer. The only new exciting thing that I can think of is I am going to Europe! Well kind of, Ashley I are looking into it right now. Maybe even Japan? It would be so much fun and it will be like our Senior trip! I don't even feel like a Senior yet. =[ I guess it's just because I'm not really doing anything really big after high school like moving away and going to a huge university. I'm still not even 100% sure what I am going to do yet. I know for sure CFCC for at least a year, or maybe a semester, but idk. I know I would miss Ocala, even though it is dumb most of the time, There are a select few people I would miss a lot though. I'm going to visit Sara this weekend because it's another 3 day weekend! AND school will probably be canceled because of hurricane Hannah! I know Hannah is pretty excited about being a hurricane! Did I mentioned I am so fucking bored! AND we have like 4 waters left. My iPod died for good a few days ago. =[ It really sucks not having one, just because of my car. It's a huge pain to listen to CD's with my forward button broke. I should really get my dad to fix that. I should be getting a new phone soon tooo! My contract is up on the 7th, so I can get the LX for real cheep. I'm playing soccer this year too! Well I'm going to try. I've been running/jogging/power walking a mile a day ( shane told me " A Mile A Day" would be a good band name lol) I really need to condition, I am so out of shape! Soccer should be really fun this year too because I will be really relaxed about it and it's not going to be anything suuuper serious. The show is almost over and I've ran out of things to sayy. Wait, one last thing. It must really suck to be so fucking alone all the time, but when you do it to yourself I can't really give you pity. Current Music: Shitty noise from Paddock Park
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Friday, August 29th, 2008
August 29, 2008	I'm going to EUROPE!!!!! =]
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Monday, May 12th, 2008
May 12, 2008	Get ready for this I have so many things running through my head right now. I feel... great/gross/bad/wrong/excited/confused/blah. All of my emotions are in a huge jumble right now. Everything is outta wack. Im failing math, My papa is in hospice with an estimated 1 week left. =[ my mom is getting on my last nerve with all her "im fat" remarks. It's really killing me inside. & then to top it all off,..... yeah. I wish I could explain more, but that will come later. Much later. =/ cant wait till summer. hopefully I can just sleep all these feelings away. It's beginning to get really annoying.
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Sunday, April 20th, 2008
April 20, 2008	newnewnewnewnewnewnewnewnew. Yeah, that is what I have been craving. Things are so fucked up right now. Well with certain people. & I'm sure it will soon be rubbing off onto others, but right about now, I don't care. I feel good. About life and everything in between. And hopefully the newness I crave will be fulfilled. I think I found it, as long as it doesn't get away. I not too worried though, it's different this time. & as much as I really needed someone to talk to about all this, you were gone. You didn't seem to care. It really sucked. I got over it. Its all over, and done. & I don't really want to anymore. This week has been so fucked up, bad then great. Whateverzz! =] Everything is falling into place. I'm not going to let anyone in the way of this. And im not sharing. I know im selfish. [ohh and I sprained my ankle. BLEH! it's all greeeeeen! haha. it should be better in a day or so though. ]
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Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
March 18, 2008	"I'm going on a bender this weekend" Goodbye Ocala. I am venturing into a week long break from chaos, &I bet I will return refreshed. Everything is so weird right now. In most cases I can tell when I'm not wanted. I can tell when I do something wrong. I can tell when it is my fault. I can tell when I am right. I can tell when I'm wanted. I can tell when i am being used. But this is a different case. I am so sick of everyone and their fucking mood swings. Things are rough, yeah I know. I am going through all the same fucking shit! My Grandma is going through chemo, as well as my Papa, and my other grandpa. My Grandma looks like she will be fine, but I'm not so sure about the other two. My grandpa lives in Tampa, so 2 hours to go see him isnt baaad, But whe you have to drive 16 hours to visit the other two, It gets to be a bit of a struggle. So needless to say, I have a lot on my plate. & This isnt the only thing. =[ I wish. So please do yourself a favor, don't come searching for sympathy from me. It might sound selfish, but I need to keep it to myself right now. There is no room for sharing. Sorry for the above bitchiness, but what goes unsaid goes untouched, and that needs to be taken care of. I really do not know what is going on, like with everything. everything is falling apart but at the same time falling into place. Im not sure what I am even doing, but whatever. Can't we just all get along? Maybe I just need to stop trying. I might just end up trying that option soon, because I am just so damn tired of trying. Blehhh. It really sucks when you miss someone you nevar thought you would miss. When you know it's there you don't care, But when you can't reach it anymore, you care the most. "i'll run and hide under my bed you're calling my name from outside my door but i'm not ready yet for a revolution to start in me 'cause i'm just scared of losing control i'm terrified of who i'll become with you i'm just scared the world hates you and it's gonna hate me too" Current Music: "Bender"- Big D and The Kids Table
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Tuesday, March 4th, 2008
March 04, 2008	FUCKKKKKK! It's the only word I can muster to even try to explain the events that have occured in the past week. =[ I don't know what I am doing. I don't know what to do. I don't know what is right. I don't know what is wrong. Im numb.
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Sunday, February 24th, 2008
February 24, 2008
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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
December 29, 2007	Mercy, mercy, mercy me. As much as I would like to believe this..... "I ended up in a sticky sketchy situation till like 1:30" "My friends weren't listening to me got their money stolen" I just can't bring my self around to it. I learned my lesson. & im not about to start feeding myself lies...again. I wasn't really expecting anything, just catching up, was all I wanted. & it turned out to be a pretty nerve racking day because of it. OHHH JEEZE! Well hopefully next time will work. =] This Christmas break has been wonderful so far. I don't want to go back to school. I still have to write an essay, and I have some math homework that needs to be done. I got a Wii for X-mas! It was a total and complete shock! I didn't ask for it at all. I love my mom. Well hope everyone is having a good break too! I miss everyoneeeeee! =]
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Monday, October 29th, 2007
October 29, 2007	I love it when things have a way of working themselves out. And I  have learned, communication  is  KEY  in anything. =] =] =] I just need to remember that for next time! YAY for tomorrow! I love A days! I have a good lunch, and I have French with people I loveee! Heh, ohh and the big dark girl!
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Saturday, October 27th, 2007
October 27, 2007	GAHHHHHHHZZZZ! IDK IDK IDK IDK! I really do not know what to think of tonight. =/
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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007
October 23, 2007	New friendships = New enemies. =/ I guess thats just the price I have to pay. WONDERFUL! But I just have this feeling, its all going to be worth it in the end. =]
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Monday, October 22nd, 2007
October 22, 2007	jkfal! I don't even know whats right on anymore. Ha! Taylor and I are hanging out today... I'm not quite sure what to think about all this. Whatever, I'm sure it will be fun. I think we are going to Goodwill! I have spent a lot of time there lately, Hah, kinda gross, but none the less FUN! I don't have any homework and it feels funny. Ohh, & I think I have an ear infection. =[ Idk though because I have never had one before! This week is gonna be super busy =] Current Music: New Found Glory!
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Friday, October 19th, 2007
October 19, 2007	kafjiulgfuieba! I feel gross. =[ It's the weekend, & it should be good. YUCKK! Current Mood: moody Current Music: nothing
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Sunday, October 14th, 2007
October 14, 2007	This weekend was nothing less than eventful. &IDK anymore. =[ It kinda makes me sad. Me and Shane have been talking a lot lately. I wish we could talk in person. Stupid girlfriends =[ My car should be fixed tomorrow!!!!! &The new Steel Train is really good. I just can't wait for November. October has been so shitty. Nov 4th - Ace Enders, Kevin Devine, & Steel Train @ The Social !! Nov 9th - Against Me! @ House of Blues !! Nov 24th - Streetlight Manifesto @ State Theater !! Nov 25th - Brand New @ House of Blues !! Dec 4th - Hot Rod Circuit @ The Social !! &&&& IDK what else! But im sure lots more! Across The Universe on Tuesday with the Hannah!!! I'm excited!
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Monday, October 8th, 2007
October 08, 2007	Bite my tongue! My car over heated again. =[ Idk why, but its fucking annoying! It's going to the shop tomorrow. Hopefully nothing too terribly wrong. Today has just been so BLEHH! It's good at times, Then it gets grossssss!!! UHGHHHHHH!!!!! Ohh Today is my dads birthday! we got him a navigation system thing for his car. It's super cool and I can't wait to use it. & I want a Wii reallllly bad! Current Mood: BLAHHH Current Music: Fox News
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Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
October 02, 2007	My little heart attack. [this is just one long ramble that means nothing] Im done. School. People. It's taken me this long to realize. But I guess it was well worth it. Sometimes I hate not being a morning person. It makes me do crappy stuff. =[ School has been so weird lately. & That makes me weird. It's like the classes I hated last year, I am loving this year. &Vice versa. I hope I don't fail TV, but with the way it going, It's not very good. Dani never does anything! & It doesn't help that I missed that class today, but I just can't stand some of the people. All I would like is some respect. It doesn't matter if you are a senior or a junior, TV3 or TV4, or even TV5! We are one class, working on videos. I would really like to start my animation again... & Mr.H has mentioned something about it, except he keeps assigning more assignments, videos I couldn't even imagine doing videos on. =[ BLEHH! &it doesnt help that im not sleeping good at all right now. Yeah, I know everyone has insomia... Seriously, I can't sleep. Im tired of depending on pills to make everything better. I guess that is just our genaration though. "Something wrong? OH well there is a pill for it!" Is it Christmas Break yet? Thats all I want. So I can just lay in bed for 2 weeks. I won't have to think about anything. Just worry about what im getting for Christmas. What awful Holiday Barbie I will be recieving from my grandmere. What CD's will I have to find on torrents due to my list being a gazillion miles long. Why I still haven't organized my iTunes/ iPod. When I will clean my room. When I will really start to get organized. What kind of desert will I make for Christmas Dinner with my moms family. If there will be food at my mom/dad's Christmas Dinner's that contain no meat. School will be the last thing on my mind. That is what I need so much right now. I wish I had more freckles. I wish I had longer hair. I wish I was REALLY smart. I wish I could FLY! I wish I still had relationships with all those friends that faded. I wish my pride was not so big sometimes. I wish I was a morning person. I wish I was more of a night person. I wish I could sleep less and feel more rested. I wish I could sleep! I wish I could keep a conversation. I wish I wasn't so awkward. I wish I could get Quinn out of the kitchen! I wish my creativity was stronger. I wish I could think on my feet. I wish I couldn't lie. I wish I had a photographic memory. I wish I could remember everything! I wish I could forget everything! I wish that idk. I WISH... Current Mood: drained Current Music: MGA<3
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